Odd Ball Syndrome

So during the day today I began to think about something that sometimes bothers me and sometimes it doesn't: the odd ball syndrome.

I've always considered myself the odd ball in many situations. I've never seen myself as a conformist or person that fit in into the crowd. Sometimes I wonder if that is a good or bad thing. For example, I have a father that is old enough to my grandfather. Many do not have a parent of a large age gap. Another example is that to this day I still have not have my first romantic relationship at age 23 and I know many in my age range that's already been in relationships and some are even married.

Even though it's discouraging sometimes, I still believe there is good in it. Maybe I'm an odd ball because God is setting me up for a wide range of influence in the future. Is that possible? Possibly but you never know. I've never truly had the desire to fit in but sometimes I feel like I'm in my own little world. I wonder sometimes if people treat me like an odd ball. Should I care? Not really. Do I care? Sometimes I do.

We live in a society that's big on conformity, fitting in and being in the "norm." If you're not doing what everyone else is doing then you're considered deviant and crazy. I just believe as a Christian I should stand out and not do what the world is doing but sometimes I just feel like an odd ball. Many would say it's ok but sometimes I'm like idk. Even in college I was kind of the odd ball. I didn't do much partying, didn't hang out in certain areas.

I will say that I still feel loved by many, even as someone kind of "odd" but still wonder sometimes if things would be different if I was more in the "norm" of things versus being "odd." But at the end of the day, it is what it is.